deleted due to some bad words!
I am concerned that you are destroying things that have profound meaning to you, that you feel trapped, have no other option but to entertain some vague escape dream. This is a very serious situation but I think you know that.
On the less-than-rational side, I think if you leave the country be sure to snag your baby from the ***** so she does not mess up the kid's head too much. You thinking north or south?